Crocodile tears and Pinoy Sympathy

If there's one thing I learned about FIlipino telanovelas, the protagonist always cries. When he/she is beaten up, left by a lover, or in pain. Tears never falter in getting them the sympathy they need. When someone cries, it's as if they're calling out for help, a hug, words to make them stronger.

But when the kontrabida starts crying, we go "you deserve it, every single drop of tear".  We think they deserve the pain, all of it. But come to think of it, they were both crying for the same reasons, pain, and the need for help.

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Now why is it that I'm in a situation where I can't be both? I've gone through several hells before that somehow, I've outgrown the tears. And yet, in my struggle to promote goodness, people abuse it and leave me no room for revenge. I don't get back at people, and I don't try to get even. And most of all, I don't understand what I did wrong this time to deserve this challenge.

In line with the Ten Commandments, I'd like to think I am on the good side. But when my antagonist starts crying, I easily become the bad guy. It's like I have to lose, to win. And losing was never a good goal. I quote Lady Gaga that I was born this way, a winner. And I'd like to keep it at that.

I don't understand why people, Filipinos is general, sympathize with the one crying. And they put too much considerations for every situation. Life would have been simpler if we follow one general rule, and apply it to all. That way, we follow standards. Then we can say what is right or wrong.

Today, I am out of good people to talk to. Everyone's out busy, or everyone's out hating me. I might be taking the wrong signals in, but that's how my mind's been for the past 10 hours or so.

I guess I'm off to a public place, talk to a stranger, and find good company. I could really use one now.
I'm closing my Twitter for today too. Just so I don't flood it with hate quotes. I don't need sympathy, because I am on the good side. What I need is someone who does not fall for crocodile tears, and doesn't have the Pinoy sympathy.