Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Splurge


SPLURGE.

Because paycheck’s coming in regularly, I thought it was okay to spent some on myself.

Here’s what I got:

a jacket from People are People

2 underwear from Topman

2 shirts from Giordano

a shirt from F&X

A cap from Celio

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I was also able to buy an ODM watch from L Time Studio

2 pairs of shoes from Happy Feet

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Now who says money can’t buy me happiness?

(P.S., ngayon lang ito. Sa susunod na sweldo, tipid na ako, pramis.)

Monday, July 26, 2010

Out of Things

Maybe it's because I've been living life on the edge for quite some time that today, I finally felt that I'm out of things to do. Everything seems too boring. Na-experience ninyo na ba ito?

I was exchanging messages with my barkada yesterday and they kept asking me out. They were insisting that I decide on what we do, movie, drink, dinner? I'd make a suggestion, but I feel like I've had my share of this and that enough to last me a week. Everything seems boring. Life is boring. Even work, at times, gets me bored.

Speaking of work, I finally got the rhythm of what I'm doing. It is only the involvement of other people that gets me in trouble. See? Boring. I was on teleprompter mode yesterday, waaay boring. I know I could do better than being a teleprompter guy, but hey, it saves me from doing production errands though. Why complain?

I've been sitting beside different DTI representatives during taping, and I really hate it when they ask me about the mechanics of the game. Weren't they sent to observe whether the game complies with the rules? So why ask me? Eh kung mali pala sabihin ko, kasalanan ko pa? I hope they come in prepared. And they comment too much too. They don't acknowledge the time and effort that people like me have put in this production.

Well, that's just me for today, good ol bored me.

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I'm bored, with a paycheck waiting to be spent. What do I do? AHHAHAHAH

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Marathen (conyo version)


So I ran my first official fun run my entire life this morning, and it felt awesome to finish it. It was a 3K run for the Chiang Kai Shek's 65th anniversary, and I was invited to join. I've been consistently invited to join runs like this, but this was the first time I said yes well because someone else paid for it! ahah! FREE-Bee! (user-me. boooooo!)

Being an amateur at this, I chose the event with the shortest distance. 3K. Since I stopped smoking some three weeks ago, I thought running for this event will finally put my quitting to good use. ahahah! I was reluctant at first mainly because, it's CKS, not my alma mater! But when I found out later that most, if not all, of the chinese schools in the country gathered to support this event, I became more excited, and supportive.

The participants' turnout was quite overwhelming all the same. I believe more than a thousand people graced the event, majority were of course part of the chinese community. A raffle ended the event, trip for two to Boracay, Hongkong and whathaveyou. With the number of participants, even before the race, I have already accepted my fate- "hindi ako uuwing luhaan". This, in the context of being able to finish the 3K run and feel like a winner, even without the raffle prize.


PHOTO FLOODING AHEAD>>>


This got me really excited, knowing that I'm on the right track! ahah! (para namang maliligaw ako!)




THE FINISH LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Chinese friends during the race, Reynard Ong and Esfrey Sia!!!







The reason for the water shortage in the country, nandito lahat sa race na ito!!!! One of five water stations during the race!






AFTER THE RACE, photo-op at the race map. =)






Some more pics during and after the race






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Well, that's one thing off my bucket list. Thank you Lord for giving me more opportunities each day! =) I love You!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

On Cover Songs



Bored and with too much time to spare, I was clicking on Youtube and landed Kings of Leon cover songs, then to Lady Gaga, and so on. I've been posting a lot of videos on Youtube a few years back, when I was still into making Vlogs about my trips with friends. But when my half-brother crashed my video camera, I stopped and lost enthusiasm.

Well now, I wanna get my camera fixed. And maybe I'll upload one cover song or two. I just need to find someone who'd play the guitar for me, and we could sing a song together. It would be cool to get many hits, no?

Use Somebody

People have this way of associating songs with people, more often than not, unconsciously. It fascinates me so much that I have been doing this for quite some time now, and it only took me one "Use Somebody by Kings of Leon" to realize that I'm doing it already.

It's fun to remember people through the songs you associate with them. It's as if the lyrics describe your fond moments together. Whenever you hear it, you'd sing along, and reminisce the times you spent together, ala music video. This way, we're just not singing, but we're understanding the message of the song.

I also realized that I can only associate songs with people who are special to me, or those who have made such strong of an impact in my life, enough to make it through an entire song.

Ikaw, do you remember any song when you think of me?

Monday, July 19, 2010

Paolo Coelho's Travelling Tips

1. Avoid museums. This might seem to be absurd advice, but let’s just think about it a little: if you are in a foreign city, isn’t it far more interesting to go in search of the present than of the past? It’s just that people feel obliged to go to museums because they learned as children that travelling was about seeking out that kind of culture. Obviously museums are important, but they require time and objectivity – you need to know what you want to see there, otherwise you will leave with a sense of having seen a few really fundamental things, except that you can’t remember what they were.

2. Hang out in bars. Bars are the places where life in the city reveals itself, not in museums. By bars I don’t mean nightclubs, but the places where ordinary people go, have a drink, ponder the weather, and are always ready for a chat. Buy a newspaper and enjoy the ebb and flow of people. If someone strikes up a conversation, however silly, join in: you cannot judge the beauty of a particular path just by looking at the gate.

3. Be open. The best tour guide is someone who lives in the place, knows everything about it, is proud of his or her city, but does not work for an agency. Go out into the street, choose the person you want to talk to, and ask them something (Where is the cathedral? Where is the post office?). If nothing comes of it, try someone else – I guarantee that at the end of the day you will have found yourself an excellent companion.

4. Try to travel alone or – if you are married – with your spouse. It will be harder work, no one will be there taking care of you, but only in this way can you truly leave your own country behind. Travelling with a group is a way of being in a foreign country while speaking your mother tongue, doing whatever the leader of the flock tells you to do, and taking more interest in group gossip than in the place you are visiting.

5. Don’t compare. Don’t compare anything – prices, standards of hygiene, quality of life, means of transport, nothing! You are not travelling in order to prove that you have a better life than other people – your aim is to find out how other people live, what they can teach you, how they deal with reality and with the extraordinary.

6. Understand that everyone understands you. Even if you don’t speak the language, don’t be afraid: I’ve been in lots of places where I could not communicate with words at all, and I always found support, guidance, useful advice, and even girlfriends. Some people think that if they travel alone, they will set off down the street and be lost forever. Just make sure you have the hotel card in your pocket and – if the worst comes to the worst – flag down a taxi and show the card to the driver.

7. Don’t buy too much. Spend your money on things you won’t need to carry: tickets to a good play, restaurants, trips. Nowadays, with the global economy and the Internet, you can buy anything you want without having to pay excess baggage.

8. Don’t try to see the world in a month. It is far better to stay in a city for four or five days than to visit five cities in a week. A city is like a capricious woman: she takes time to be seduced and to reveal herself completely.

9. A journey is an adventure. Henry Miller used to say that it is far more important to discover a church that no one else has ever heard of than to go to Rome and feel obliged to visit the Sistine Chapel with two hundred thousand other tourists bellowing in your ear. By all means go to the Sistine Chapel, but wander the streets too, explore alleyways, experience the freedom of looking for something – quite what you don’t know – but which, if you find it, will – you can be sure – change your life.


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As a frustrated traveller, this entry awakened the sleeping traveller in me. And it has escalated my local cravings to...err, international! hahaha!

Let's get my boots on and see the world. but first, I need to find me that spouse. Winkwink!

Weakened by the Weekend

Well, today isn't the kind of Monday that will jump-start your week. I guess I ran out of things to look forward to. Or maybe because I am just sick. And I am weakened by the thought of not being able to do things I normally do. Is this a valid excuse?

I went to the gym a few hours ago with my new gymbuddy Reynard. Despite coughs here and there, I was able to pull through the entire Body Combat class. So it's not the being sick that's tearing me apart. Then what?

I went to the office to do some errands for a friend. Kinda felt a bit low somewhere there, but I don't think that's where all the nega is coming from.

I need time with my friends. Sure na. My world gets smaller by the minute and I'm losing all my reasonable connections. Sure, I'm enjoying myself in this little small world I made, but heck, I need to go out every once in a while.

I want to go out tonight. A bottle or two.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

A not quite boring Sunday

Pagkagising ko, sinalubong ko ng isang tawag ang isang espesyal na tao.

Sinimulan namin ang araw sa harap ng aking superhero, si Lord.

Pagkauwi sa bahay ay nag-Wii sandali, at saka nanood ng DVD.

Tutungo sana sa banawe para kumain, inabot ng ulan at nauwi sa lugaw, C2, tinapay, tokwa ang hapon. Ganito ang eksena:

Alas-kwatro ng hapon. Kakatapos lamang bumuhos ng malakas na ulan, naiwan ang malakas na hangin na may tangay na kaunting patak pa ng ulan.

Pagkababa ng kotse ay nagpasalamat sa trapal na nagmistulang bubuong ng maliit na pwesto ng lugawan.

Ihip sa mainit sa lugaw, bubulong ang malamig na hangin ng ulan. Repeat 16x.

Pagkatapos maglugaw ay tumungo sa housewarming ng isang kaibigan.

namangha sa ganda ng bahay. Nainspire na magkaroon ng sariling bahay. Biglang naisip ang condo ko sa Fort. Nag-iba ang pangarap. Na-excite mag-furnish. Ahahah!

nanood ng pelikula, UP. Nakatulog ng konti, pero naappreciate ang ganda ng pelikula.

Umuwi at humarap sa laptop.

Linggo.

Pa-victim

Medyo nauso ang salitang ito sa opisina. PA-victim ka kung:

pagod ka na pero sinasabi mong okay ka pa din...

gutom ka na pero hindi ka pa din kumakain...

antok ka na pero kunyari hindi pa...

...tapos magrereklamo ka sa huli.

Medyo may ilang mga pa-victim sa opisina, minsan, ako din pa-victim dahil ayaw kong sinasabihan ako na laging relax at cool at tamad.

kapag ngarag na ang buong opisina, ako lang ang bukod-tanging tao na hindi nangangarag. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero may assurance kasi sa loob ng puso ko na nagsasabing everything will be alright, at hindi naman kailangang mag-panic. Kung mag-panic ba ako, bibilis yung trabaho at babagal ang oras? Hindi naman diba? Hindi pa sila marunong mag-handle ng stress. And to think ang tagal na nila sa industriya.

Nakakalungkot din na hindi pa marunong mag-approach ng tao yung ibang nasa posisyon doon sa trabaho. Parehong resulta naman ang makukuha nila, so why do things in the lesser approach? Pag medyo kabisado ko na ang trabaho, pipiliin ko na ang mga taong gusto kong makasama, pag may nega, NO agad. =) Isang season lang naman itong bago kong show, konting tiis na lang. =)

Nababastusan na din ako sa isa ko pang katrabaho. Lahat ng biro niya, medyo green na. "Mahilig ka naman maghubad sa pictures mo eh, hubad na!" Kahit pabiro, minsan, nakaka-offend na.

Haaay, minsan, mapapaisip ka na lang din talaga kung bakit nasa posisyon yung mga taong hindi naman angkop. Swertehan? Wag naman sana. Kasi napupunta sa mga bagong dating yung burden na gumagawa ng wakenang hierarchy sa trabaho na hindi naman dapat. Sabi pa nung isa kong katrabaho, "ganyan talaga pag bago, kailangan mong magpaalila." Sumagot ako, "kelan pa? tarantado! Wag ka ngang pa-boss!" tapos iniwanan ko. Okay naman ang seniority eh, basta nasa lugar ang paggamit sa seniority.

Ang blog na ito ay isang halimbawa ng pagiging pa-victim. BOW. Bye!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Chasing after happy thoughts

This is what I've been doing a lot lately. Gone are the days where I find happiness in everything. Maybe it's because I've met my kryptonites. And it's killing me fast.

Blue Kryptonite goes to work.
Work has been really demanding a lot from me lately. Time, energy, brain cells, emotion. All of these are drained out of me after every shoot. And as if to aggravate the situation, some people from work are not making it easier for me. Mayabang na ako, pero ang daming bakla na nagkakagusto sa akin na minsan, natatakot ako kung tama pa bang pakisamahan ko sila o maging suplado na lang at kainisan sa trabaho. Gusto kong makasundo ang lahat ng tao sa work, pero hindi ako pwede maging friendly. The irony.

May ilan namang tao sa work na pinepersonal ako dahil siguro sa insecurities na natitrigger ko sa loob nila. Eto na lang, hindi sukatan ang tagal mo sa trabaho para masabing magaling ka. Maaaring magaling ka nga sa mata mo, pero minsan, aminin natin, mas magaling ako (magdala ng sitwasyon). =)

red Kryptonite goes to friends
I haven't seen a lot of them lately and I miss them so much. Puro na lang ako work at lovelife na minsan, hindi na ako nagiging ako. Gone are the days na umuuwi ako ng lasing, ng bumabangka sa kwentuhan, ng tumatawa ng malakas ng walang totoong dahilan. Although I've made some good friends at work, siyempre, iba pa din yung mga barkada mo talaga. gustohin ko man sila isingit sa schedule ko, demanding ang work, pati ang lovelife.

Yellow Kryptonite goes to family
My mom visited the other day, for two days. Both days I was out because of a location shoot. I didn't get to see much of her, just a simple hi-hello and a kiss. And while working, it frustrates me that my mom is at home worried sick about my health for not getting decent sleep because of work. I was up almost 40 hours and working. She seriously wants me to get another job, with normal working hours. She doesn't care about the money I'm making, she just cares about me. Moms are like that no? I cried not because I was hurt, but because I was tired.

If I wasn't as big as I am now, I'd hug my mom, cry for five minutes, hug her even tighter and tell her, "ma, pagod na ako." But I'm too ashamed to do that. I wasn't raised to be sweet, and clingy. I was raised to become a strong and powerful person. So I just call her every now and then, tell her I'm doing fine. The rest of the pain, I deal with myself. kaya ko naman eh, hangga't kaya.

Never has my mom interfered with my decision-making, only this one. Work's adjusting pretty well on my clock naman lately, I just don't know how long this will last. I get tired, yes. But it's better than doing nothing. Singapore offer is still up for grabs, and it's getting warmer as I count the days. I'm finding great reasons to stay sa work. Joselle, Maki, mom Faye, Ynah, Ms. TR, Ms. Yvette, Kuya Jonard, the MIB's, Kuya Aldrin, the friendly drivers, sa catering people, people from the canteen who surprisingly knows my name, the lady guards. Lahat sila, mahalaga na sa akin. =)

kakapit ako hangga't kaya. Just help me Lord. At utang na loob, sana mamatay na ang mga taong nakikielam sa trabaho ko at hindi naman ginagawa ng maayos ang trabaho nila. yun lang pows.

Dinhi sa Akong Tupad (Here Beside Me)

DINHI SA AKONG TUPAD
ni: Wado Siman

Namumula ang mga mata ni Estrel nang magising mula sa isang panaginip. Kapos sa hininga at ngimi ang buong katawan sa pinaghalong pawis, lamig at kaba. Dali-dali niyang kinuha ang kanyang diary mula sa ilalim ng kama at nagsimulang magsulat.

Dear Bes,

Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang panaginip ko ngayon-ngayon lang. Iniwan na daw akong tuluyan ni Rogberto. Sa tuwing makikita ko siya na malayo sa akin, sa tuwing lalapitan ko siya ay bigla na lamang siyang maglalaho. bakit ganoon Bes? Anong nais ipahwiatig ng panaginip ko? Natatakot ako. Samahan mo lang ako Bes.

Nagmamahal, Estrel.

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Kinaumagahan ay tinungo agad ni Estrel si Rogberto at saka ikinuwento ang kanyang panaginip.

"Panaginip lang yan Es, wag mong pansinin."

May ilang gabi pa na paulit-ulit ang nangyayari sa panaginip ni Estrel. Bawat araw, mas lumalayo ang imahe ni Rogberto. hanggang sa isang gabi pagkalipas ng isang linggo, tuluyan na niyang hindi makita ang irog.

"Rogberto, hindi na kita makita sa panaginip ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko ito nakikita sa panaginip ko, natatakot ako. Gihigugma ko ikaw Rogberto, nahadlok nako layo ka sa ako. (Mahal kita Rogberto, at natatakot akong malayo ka sa akin)."

"Estrel, yang damgo nimo, damgo lang. Dungon nimo ako..."

Rogberto, hindi naman lalabas yun sa panaginip ko kung wala-wala lang."

"Ano ba ang dili mo masabot, ha? Anong gusto mong himo nako? Hunong nimo damgo? Minaw ka sa ako Estrel,gihigugma ko ikaw, buong kasing-kasing. Mas maniniwala ka na ngayon sa panaginip mo keysa sa ako? Putang-ina Estrel."

"Sorry Rogberto, napapadals lang kasi eh, parang totoo na yung mga damgo nako."

"O, eto mas totoo..."

Namimilog ang luha sa mga mata ni Rogberto.

"Rogbe...bakit ka...?

"Nahihirapan na ako patunayan sa iyo kung gaano kita kamahal. Kahit wala naman akong ginagawang daotan, lagi mo pa din ako pinagbibintangan. Mahal kita, pero ang tingin mo sa pag-ibig ko ay pawang pagtataksil. Wala na sa ako yan Estrel, hindi ko na alam kung paano pa patunayan sa imo ang pagmamahal ko. Nakakapagod."

"Sinasabi ko na nga ba, magkakatotoo ang panaginip ko."

"Hindi sana Estrel, ginawa mong totoo."

WAKAS

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Skinny fail


Bought new pants with my sweldo.

But obviously not this friggin’ tight fucked-up pants!

Lahat halos ng pinuntahan kong shops, puro ganito na ang pantalon! Bwiset.

This is a modern chastity belt that suffocates your thing until it runs out of air.

Bakit ang daming nagsusuot ng ganito!?

Hirap gumalaw eh. Gah!

Rainy Season

"Manong, iiyak lang muna ako, pwede?"

It was a long trip from Novaliches, to Morato, to C-5. Lucky I got a kind cab driver who willingly waited for me as I did my tasks for the day.

I hate the feeling- Despite doing everything right, things turn out wrongly because of other people. And you get blamed for it. And it's no coincidence, it's a habitual recurrence. And I'm growing tired of it.

My week has been flooded by rain. Of disappointing people and of heartaches.

Tonight decides my future. I hope I make the right decision.