On Empty Spaces

They say empty spaces are to be filled. That is what I am looking for right now, something to fill in these spaces.

Just for today, I am feeling empty. I don't know for what reason exactly, I just feel plain empty. Drained, exhausted and tired.


Maybe it's because I saw an ex friend at a party last night, and the thought of him trying to please everyone else exhausts me. Somehow, I am affected not because I still care, but because everytime I see him do that, strongly reminds me of how he treated me the same before and later on stabbed me with it. I'd pick a fight with him, but that's just not me. I won't stoop to doing something so low. You'd expect him to do that, but not me. Hope you'd be gone for good, you suck the joys and happiness out of me. Pathetic me. This wawa's for me.

Maybe because most of my friends already have jobs and I don't have one yet. Applying for a job at Singapore would mean a huge leap for me, and by leap I meant risk, ahah! It's frustrating that in a month's time, they'd be earning and I won't. So this is how it feels, empty...pocket! ahahh!

My lovelife is finally paying its dues. Thank you "Deme" for filling in these spaces. I am thankful for the every day you're making me happy and proud. You are my world now, and I am looking forward to a lifetime ahead with you.

But sadly, for now, I hope it's only for now, I feel empty.