Releasing Pains

I miss the times when I would just sit down, watch people pass me by, and make up stories of them.

I miss walking long unaware-of-time walks alone.

I miss the beach and being with someone special.

I miss good vibes that demand nothing in return.

I miss buying stuffs for myself and not for other people.

I miss making new friends.

I miss my friends.

I'm running out of good people.

I have to do this, because the pain is becoming unreal.

What is hurting me? It's these little things that I'm laughing at right now.

*Last week, my lit prof told me that I'm not officially enrolled in her class, after an entire semester of on-time paperworks and perfect attendance, she tells me this. I became afraid of not being able to graduate because of one subject, an issue which some of my blockmates are experiencing, so goes with my best friend. Glad to share that before I left for the retreat, I was able to fix the "encoding issue" of the UST accounting office, and I am now in perfect fit for graduation.

*I thought I lost the very expensive energy bracelet my mom got me last year. After the lost laptop incident I had not so long ago, I became really afraid of losing something expensive, again. Good thing my new yaya found it in the laundry basket with the other dirty clothes. It must've slipped when I was changing clothes. Whatever the cause, I'm just happy I found it. I wouldn't have to deal with "telling my mom I lost something rally expensive and promise to pay for it but don't know how" phase.

*I ams till frustrated with the nomination-less film we made for the CASA film festival. I still believe that what we produced was better than some of those who got nominated. I am satisfied with the list of winners to be honest, in fact I was expecting they'd win from the start, it's the nomination that bothered me. At least the audience did not fail us when they told me Oyayi was great, we eventually got the Audience choice for Best Picture award. I'm now excited to work with my TOMCAT friends on this short film project.

*My tooth's aching again. If there's one thing I don't want messed up, it's my teeth. I judge people on their oral hygiene. I will definitely fall for you if your teeth are perfect, LIKE POPPY!!!!!!!!! GAHD! That kid has got the most perfect set of teeth in the entire world! Anyway, I still couldn't find the time to visit my dentist, I will do soon, I just have to finish up things from here and there.

*I sprained my arm not so long ago, and it pains me not being able to compete in the Goodwill Games. In fact, not competing is more painful than hurting my arm. I really felt bad. Good thing people were there to help me.


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Now I have all the time I need.

*I was able to take Bali to the dog salon early this morning.

*I am now writing long blogs again, not the fragmented-poem-wannabe ones I've been making for the past two weeks.

*I am partying with my good friends again. In fact, I had fun at Poch's birthday celebration last night. Drinking beer felt good once again.

*I'll be meeting P.A. tomorrow to see the pyrolympics at MOA. I miss hanging out with this guy, we are both in control of time whenever we're together.

*I got a call from my mom this morning. "Gusto mong mag Beijing sa bakasyon?" I knew there was a reason why God didn't allow my Thailand trip to push thru, because I'm going to China for free!!! Sana matuloy. =) And I'm meeting all of the Chinese friends I made during DCATCH in Japan and thailand. I will meet up with them, ALL of them! Wahahahahh!

*I'm earning money again. Glad to have finally rested from my spending spree whenever I am with the Awesome Foursome. May perks din pala kapag hindi kayo nagpapansinan. Ahahah! But last night, we surprised Miko for his birthday. We caught him drunk at home, sayang. But we had fun getting cakes from Mozu, getting lost in Pasig, and driving home at 5 in the morning. It was a surprise night indeed, kahit ako, nasurprise. Fun night!

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It feels good when you have friends who listen.

I feel like I'm running out of good people in my life.

I am holding on to the last string.

I am praying again. =)

I will go to the beach soon.

Now that I'm starting to have you again, I won't let go this time.