Just for today, it's been a roller coaster ride for me

I've been happy over the past few days, when everything was going okay. My mom's visit became more frequent, my zeal for my studies is slowly recuperating from it's long rest, most of my friends get along with me really well, up until now, I couldn't have asked for more.

Two nights ago, I found out that our business has been on boiling water for several months now. And I, have been living a life we couldn't afford. I still wanted so many things, but at this point, will be too much to ask. I wanted so much to help our business, I know I could. The thought of stopping for a semester entered my mind. But then again, I know it will do me no good, and my mom will definitely not agree.

I know my mom's going through hell right now, with Bea becoming more and more whiny about her not finding a job, the birth of an expensive lifestyle for Symon, me not talking to him, Mae's insecurities, I really do not know how she would handle all of these.

Frankly, I do not like the people around my mom anymore. So far, I've been her only source of good news among her children. And I will keep on doing that until my other siblings find ways on their own.

For this week, I will try and do myself a favor by not giving in to other people's qualms and whining. Just for this week, I will try not to do any favors as I will be adjusting to a new lifestyle I sure hope I easily get accustomed to but not acquainted with. Just for this week, I will spend less, avoid crowds, study more, prioritize what is essential and important. If these things do me good, maybe I'll do it for another week, and the week after that. Just for this week, I will be experimenting.

Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised that it would be worth it. So even though the waves are going another direction, I promise not to go with the changes, instead, I'll try to adjust my sails and direct it to where I think the right way is.

On the brighter side of things, I was really thankful when my family gathered on our first* family reunion at the Tagaytay Highlands. Amah was really happy seeing all of us gather together, celebrated her birthday, shared a meal, exchanged stories and more.

Regal was really impressed with what I have done today at work. With my 200 hours over, my going to work is proof enough that I am indeed more that just an intern to them. We bonded the entire day at the Avid room, played guitar, shared a humble snack, went to the mall. It was quite overwhelming.

I have plenty of things to thank for. I am blessed with very important people who loves me. Tests may come my way, but God gave me a mind to think and a heart to tell me what's the right thing to do. God is good indeed...all the time!