Welcome March

Ang bilis dumaan ng isang buwan. March na agad. Pero parang pakiramdam ko, antagal na nung huling pasko. Kung magpapasko na next month, hindi ko sasabihin na "aba, pasko na agad?". Eto siguro yung feeling na so near yet so far, na hinaluan ng ang bilis ng panahon.

Nararamdaman kong magiging chaotic ang buwan ng March ko. At kung hindi ako nag-uupdate ng blog ko for the past few weeks, mas lalo na siguro next month.

In ten days, aalis na ang panganay kong kapatid para pumuntang Europe. Doon na siya magiging nurse. Malaking pagbabago ang hatid nito sa pamilya ko, I'm sure. Panibagong adjustment para sa nanay ko. Sana it works for the best.

In 24 days, aalis kami papuntang Singapore. Ang supposedly family trip namin, ay binago ng maagang paglipad ng ate ko. Kasama siya sa booking ng tickets, pero dahil sa biglaang twist ng kapalaran, lima na lang kaming pupuntang Singapore.

In 30 days, magsisimula na ang World Stage sa Malaysia at Singapore. ito ang unang pagkakataon na magtatrabaho ako overseas. AHAHAHH! Pakiramdam ko tuloy ay OFW ako. NOT. Na-eexcite akong makatrabaho ang mga bata mula sa ibang bansa. Ito ay opportunity na din para sa akin ang aralin ang kultura ng mga bata mula sa iba't ibang bansa.

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Kahapon, tumakbo ako sa EDSA run, 5k. Nakakagulat kasi hindi ko inaasahang matatapos ko ang 5k nang hindi humihinto. Iba din pala talaga kapag may goal ka. Ibang drive yung nanggagaling sa iyo. HIndi adrenaline kundi yung inspired ka na matapos, kasi may goal.

freebies

Natatakot akong tumakbo nung una kasi kahit sa treadmill, 1k pa lang, hingal na ako. Paano pa kaya kung 5k? EDSA run was a revelation. In 38 minutes, natapos ko ang 5k run. Achievement para sa akin.

Kahapon, dapat ay reliever lang ako sa pagiging teleprompter sa bagong game show ng TV5 na Lucky Numbers. Host nito si Eugene Domingo at Keempee. Sinabi din ni Ate Beng kahapon na regular na daw ako. Another blessing. Bagong pamilya sa Kapatid network, bagong show, at wala akong masabing masama sa mga katrabaho ko.

Andun at sobrang down to earth na artista na si Uge, ang maalagang staff, si Ms Gracia na habangbuhay kong kaaldalan sa prompter area, masayang ambiance. Hindi ko maipaliwanag. Iba din siguro kapag mas matanda sa iyo ang mga katrabaho mo, inaaalagaan ka nila. Sa HT kasi, halos ka-edad ko ang mga staff. So more on barkada ang tinginan namin sa isa't isa. Kapatid. Walang mas lamang, sadyang magkaiba sila.

Kumbaga sa english, apples and oranges.

Ganito pala ang feeling na may goal ulit sa buhay, nakakagana. I must have done something right again to deserve this second shot at life.

Welcome March. Embrace me for now I am more driven, more competent, and more, blessed.

The Return of Inday: Nahihilo ako

Nilapitan ako ni Inday kaninang umaga at sinabing

Inday: nahihilo ako.

Ako: Bakit?

Inday: Mataas BP ko eh. Nagpatingin ako nung Lunes.

Ako: Saan?

Inday: jan sa may palengke, sa gawaan ng salamin.

Ako: Sino kasama mo?

Inday: Yung katulong jan sa tapat.

Ako: Tapos nahihilo ka pa rin?

Inday: oo. 160/100 ako nung lunes eh.

Ako: Tara, patingin ulit tayo.

Sa kotse, umupo si Inday sa likod.

Ako: dito ka nga umupo sa harap. Ginawa mo pa akong driver.

We went to check with UDMC

Inday: Wag jan, mahal.

Ako: ok lang yun!

Inday: BP lang gusto ko mapatingnan. Sa clinic na lang tayo. Pag ospital, baka malaman pa yung
iba kong sakit.

Ako: Ok. Tayo na sa barangay.

SARADO. Congratulations sa kapitan ng Brgy Don Manuel.

Inday: Wag na nga lang.

Ako: Ano ka ba, pag namatay ka sa bahay. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Para maagapan.

Isang kanto, may maternity clinic.

Ako: Dito na lang tayo magpatingin.

Inday: Bakit may pictures ng baby?

Ako: Pang mga buntis kasi ito. Baka buntis ka pala kaya ka nahihilo.

Inday: Wag naman sana.

ANAK NG TOKWA!

ahahahh!
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We ended up with a P20 BP check, a 130/90 BP, and a more calm Inday on our way home.

Kolehiyo

Balik-tanaw sa isa sa mga pinaka-malaking nangyari sa buhay ko nung college, ang dahilan sa "Usapan namin ni God" entry. Ang hero ng buhay ko. Congratulations, sa wakas, gagraduate ka na. <3

Wala kang kupas.

One member less

My sister finally passed all her requirements to work as a nurse in UK. She won't have to get a student VISA like most of the lot, instead, she'll be working asap. It's what she's been waiting for for two long years. And I quote her, "it was worth the wait.".

Congratulations sis! Soooo proud of you! Hope to get you the boots you wanted before you leave. =D

The Angel Locsin dream

Two nights ago, I had a dream about Angel Locsin twice. Same place, same people, same party, but the only difference was how the party ended. Let me tell you about it.

My friend and I went to this underground party one night, and saw Angel Locsin dancing with her girlfriends. She was wearing this sexy blue dress and smelled like my neighbor Bonnienie, like a baby.

My best friend and I approached her and asked her to dance, eventually, she agreed.

Big bouncers and bodyguards were all over the place.

A few seconds later, we heard a gunshot and everybody started running. My friend grabbed Angel's and my hand and led us inside this room for safety.

One or two guards saw us enter the room. "Sabi ko na may balak yung dalawang kumag na yun eh!" The guards went after us and shot us. We died, painting this bloody image where Angel was in the middle of two good friends, all peaceful.

And then I woke up. I went downstairs to get myself a glass of water before going back to bed. When I returned to my REM stage, my dream commenced once more.

Same party, same crowd. I knew what was gonna happen, so I was a little cautious this time.

My friend and I went to this underground party one night, and saw Angel Locsin dancing with her girlfriends. She was wearing this sexy blue dress and smelled like my neighbor Bonnienie, like a baby.

My best friend and I approached her and asked her to dance, eventually, she agreed.

Big bouncers and bodyguards were all over the place.

A few seconds later, we heard a gunshot and everybody started running. My friend grabbed Angel's hand, while I, knowing what would happen if I went with them, chose to leave with the rest of the people running. When I looked back, both of them were gone.

When the place was clear of guns and people, I went back only to see my friend and Angel drenched in their own blood. Angel was still breathing.

"Ganito ba siya kabulok umarte? Patay na, pero humihinga pa?" Inside my head, I laughed at the joke.

Angel tried to reach out her hand, so I approached her.

What should I say to a dying person? To make her feel that the life she had was well-lived and that she was loved enough?

Screw that. I ended up telling how great an actress she was, and how I felt bad when she moved to Channel 2. Haha!

When she took her last breath, I thanked her. I don't know why I did that, but I knew, I had to thank her.

I woke up once more, this time feeling a lot better. I didn't die, because I knew what was coming. Though I felt bad having to leave my friend behind. Who would have known that running away with the rest of the crowd would change the story?

Why Angel? I don't know. But one thing I learned is that, always know how to appreciate people. Learn to thank and compliment them every single day!

Today, I sent a message to two of my most beloved friends, thanked them for making my day!

Tomorrow, I will thank the world.

Everyday, I will thank my Lord.


(November 2009)

Graceful Agony

It was a beautiful monday morning. The fan was on, it's 9:30am, and I'm curled up at the top corner of my bed, sandwiched by two fluffed up pillows. Usually, I'd go straight to the bathroom to pee, but that morning, I decided to check on my phone first.

3 text messages. And then my heart skipped a beat. It was as if someone I love died, that would have been a lot better. No periods. Just words rallying one after another. It broke my heart, all of it.

She was apparently mad, and she's letting me go. "It's about time.." she said.

I tried to call her, but my fingers were powerless. I didn't want to apologize, I shouldn't be saying sorry. And I ended up with a series of text messages as well. One painful word after another. This was the hardest thing I've ever done in 22 years, and it's bound to get harder as I let the days pass.

It's as if the time, efforts and love I've given were not enough. I was not good enough. She had to get mad, now when I needed her the most.

Pride is not keeping me from talking to her, but what's left of me.

I'm sorry that you fell that way about me, but I won't be sorry for being this way about you. It's asking for too much.

I'll stick to what I said in one of my texts, "should you feel the need for me, I will still be here."

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Photo taken at the Pueblo Por la Playa resort in Tiaong, Quezon.

Time to heal.

The Embodiment (The Story of Water and Mankind)

Well, this is my second time to join an online video competition. The first one is for Havaianas' summer getaway promo. I won myself a limited edition pair which is currently our bathroom slippers (it's old). However, I didn't win the grand prize. This time, I'm crossing my fingers, all 20 of them.

Here's the film's synopsis:

The film depicts the story of a young lady who was saved by his admirer from drowning.

The lady stands as an embodiment of water. The sound of droplets in the beginning signifies expiration of water on Earth. On the other hand, the man stands as an embodiment of mankind. He is awed by the beauty of the young lady; hence, he ends up stalking her. The act of stalking embodies human's interminable use of water. Humans exploit the liquid compound as much as they could. This is the film's resolution: mankind's redemption of the planet by saving water.

I worked with three of my dearest TOMCAT crew, Jam, Judy and Alexis for this entry, and I'm really proud with what we have produced, given only one day to shoot. The underwater shots took some learning before we mastered it. 

Kudos team H2O for this project. More to come!

SUPPORT us! <3 Though you can't vote online. AHAHH! So pray na lang. 

Jam, Kleng (our actress), Alexis, ME and Judy

http://www.adb.org/MyView/2010/submissions.asp