Art of letting go

About a year ago, I found myself in the exact same position I am in right now. I'm about to go through the really hard process of letting go of my DCATCH friends and the entire experience as well. It might sound cliche-ish, and very not me, but there's something more to this experience than just video-making and traveling, the people you meet along the way, the exchange of culture, and the really special bond makes it really hard to let go.

About a year ago, it took me almost a month before I could finally accept that the experience is finally over. Going back to the Philippines from Thailand was more difficult than getting a truck inside a house with small doors. I kept my online connections more alive so as to keep myself posted with the updates from my Japanese, Chinese and Thai friends.

This year, I fear it might be the same for me, if not, even harder. Because I know that this is going to be my last chance to join this project. What's even harder, is that my friends feel the same way too.

About a year ago, all of my teammates took us to the airport. This year, it will be quite the same scenario. I hate goodbyes. Fuck, I really hate goodbyes. I was never good at it, never was, never will.

Today, I'm off to Tokyo with some of the members from the group. I know that I'd be taking home more than just pictures from now on, you know.

From Japan with love

It's just today that I was able to fix the internet inside my room. Now I'm drowning myself with so much updating from my friends, and this is what I got.

nakuha yung folder design ko for UST-OFAD sa top 5. Although hindi nanalo, nagulat ako na nakapasok. Dahil seryoso, wala pang isang oras ginawa ko yun! And I'm so happy na kahit hindi ako nag-eeffort ng sobra, maganda pa din pala ang mga nagagawa ko and people are able to appreciate it! Hindi ko maattach kasi Japanese yung options dito, diko maintindihan, nect time ko na lang ipapakita!

Ang lamig dito. Basta malamig, pero ambilis mong bumaho kasi ewan. Kinabahan ako kanina kasi may hint ng bad smell yung kili-kili ko. Katakot! Hindi ako sanay. Kaya naligo agad ako ng todo pagkauwi!

Try kong mag daily diary update bukas, wag ngayon, kasi it's late na and I have a very busy day waiting for me tomorrow!

See you!

Love---from Wado-san!

Ahahah

So it's Japan for me I guess

In two days, I'll be leaving for Japan.

Haven't updated this page for quite a while, too busy with school, videos, and studying.

I've been trying to quit smoking again.

Been to Tagaytay thrice in a month.

I think I'm falling in love again, but this time, I have control over my emotions, which is a good sign. It wouldn't hurt as much when the loving is over.

Saw this over the net, didn't know it was a competition. I thought it was an advocacy so I said yes. Gulat ko na lang, votes pala ang labanan.

http://spreadthesweetness.ph/videos.php?view=media&media=65

It feels good to be inspired.

I'm slowly regaining my confidence din pala. Got my editing mojos back! Ahahaha

Whoever you are, thanks for remembering the "date" and the "stuffs" we did during that day. Hindi ito bastos, I just don't want to drop any information. ahahah!I would have wanted to spend the entire day with you, but we're too busy we've got so much more other things to do. It was short-lived but fully remembered.

Let me love you the way I know how to.

Tricycle driver sa Galas at friendship na malas

Habang naglalakad ako papuntang Welcome Rotonda, napansin ko ang dalawang tricycle driver na nakaupo sa gutter ng kalsada,bago ang cellphone nung isa at may camera.

Nagulat ako nung napansin kong nagpipicturan pala silang dalawa.

Driver A: Isa pa pare, hindi naman ako kita eh.

Driver B: Dumikit ka kasi sa akin, ang layo mo tsong.

At nagdikit nga sila ng pisngi, at saka tumawa pagkakita sa picture.

Driver B: Hindi ka naman nakangiti eh.

Hindi ko na narinig yung iba nilang usap dahil nga naglalakad ako. Nakakahiya naman kung tatambay pa ako dun para lang malaman kung makukuha ba nila ang perfect shot na inaasam nilang dalawa.

Naisip ko din tuloy, walang relasyong "bestfriend" ang perpekto. At sa lahat ng relasyon, ito ang pinakamahirap i-maintain. Kasi, lilimitahan mo yung love sa relasyon.

Kapag kasi nagkulang ka ng love sa bestfriend mo, pwedeng sabihin na neglectful ka o di naman kaya iresponsable. Kasi oras na pasukin mo ang bestfriendship, automatically, may tungkulin ka na dapat gampanan. Ikaw kukuha ng notes kapag absent siya, magpapasa ng assignment niya, sasalo ng sapak, shoulder to cry on ba.

Kapag sobra ka naman sa pagmamahal, maiinlove ka, patay. Karamihan nga sa naging problema ko sa mga close friends ko eh ganito. Bago pa man maging sobrang sakto nung relasyon, papasok si romantic love. At sisirain niya lahat. Lahat-lahat. Kasi yung isa, friendship lang ang kaya, yung isa, sa sobrang friendship, naging love, hindi nakontrol, gusto romantic love ang ibigay mo. Pakiramdam ko, mas masakit pa ito kesa sa mahuli mo syota mong may kabit.

Kaya mahirap talagang i-maintain ang friendship, dahil laging dapat may control ka sa emosyon, lalo na ang love emotions. Buti na lang at emosyon ng galit ang naeengkwentro ko recently, kasi kapag love, juskopo, ikamamatay na ng puso ko.

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Noong pauwi ako galing school, napansin ko ang mga driver ng Galas na nanonood ng tv sa terminal nila. Hulaan ninyo ang palabas...


Ellen Degeneres show.

ktnxbye!